My "Why"

Buckle up. It gets good...

In nothing short of God's holy pursuit and fervent perseverance over the last isolating year of my life, God performed a miracle of revival in my heart -- shattering every wall, lie, and barrier that unknowingly prevented me from fully accepting, embracing, and finding peace and joy in His perfect relational presence. He broke down the religious pain and false understanding of His being that I held onto, and He revealed His gift of extraordinary relationship...a gift that, despite growing up Christian, I had never fully understood the holy magnitude of until then.

The Lord struck through my pride to reveal my brokenness and mercifully meet me in the midst of it. And in the excruciating pain of the tearing back of pages and lies, I was met with pure, indescribable peace in His tangible presence. It is in a moment like that that one truly, for the first time, realizes how undeserving we are of such a King and Savior. And not an "undeserving" as in I cannot accept His presence, but such a feeling of utter awe and gratitude that the Creator of the Universe, the King of Heaven and Earth and everything in between, would pursue me and surround me and take delight in me as His daughter. That it is such an honor, the highest honor, to sit in His presence, to declare Him Lord, and to be used by Him, that I have no choice but to radically and whole heartedly align my life fully to the Kingdom mission and the calling the Lord has placed on my life and continues to equip me to pursue.

I grew up in a Southern Christian household -- to whatever understanding that provides. I knew the "right" answers when needed, and I deeply understood the painful façade of broken people. But it was not until the Lord himself revealed His overwhelming fatherly love, uncovering and healing pain and trauma that I had used to give substance to my walls, and picked me up from the messy bed of my life, that I was changed. Transformed. Committed, finally, one hundred percent to His mission; my purpose.

This is a fraction of the story, and perhaps I'll add onto this one day. But until then, I'm excited for the art series in progress that aligns with this testimony. If you have any questions or would like to discuss more, please reach out!

This is my "why" to pursuing art, faith, and community.

Jesus is Lord. And He is so, so good.